Sam Frost Plans Backyard Wedding After Heartbreak

has revealed intimate details about her upcoming wedding while reflecting on a deeply painful period in her life that left her feeling like she had a 'hole in my heart'.

The 37-year-old star, who shot to fame on Australia before becoming the inaugural Bachelorette,

In a candid interview with Stellar magazine, Sam described a chaotic but joyful home life.

'I have to hide otherwise one of them will come and try to find me,' she said.

For Sam, these small, noisy moments now represent everything she once longed for.

'It's the small moments of pure joy that remind you... this is what life is about,' she said.

'I was playing outside with [sons] Ted and Bobby the other day and I was like, "This is joy." It's great to have ambitions, but for anyone who's gone through hard times – grief or mental health struggles – it's small things that make you feel peaceful.'

After years in the spotlight - including a stint on Home and Away - Sam says her proudest role is now a personal one.

'I'm a stay-at-home mum, and while I do little bits and pieces I'm so privileged to be able to stay with the boys and have that time,' she said.

The shift has also meant financial adjustments, with Sam admitting she and her Australian Survivor star partner are no longer living as comfortably as when she was working full-time.

'We aren't in the financial position we were in when I was working; we've had to make choices and live smaller,' she said.

That mindset extends to their upcoming wedding, which the couple are planning to hold in their backyard next February.

'Having something extravagant seems silly,' she said.

'It's not about that; it's about making a commitment to each other. I don't want to spend crazy amounts on this one day.'