Rita Wilsons Emotional Wishes for Tom Hanks

has pulled the curtain back on her emotional response to the grueling bout of breast she suffered in 2015.

The 69-year-old wife of  had a double mastectomy and reconstructive surgery while fighting the illness, taking a month off from her run in Larry David's Broadway show Fish in the Dark in order to undergo the procedures.

Now she has looked back on her brush with mortality while speaking to her old friend onstage at the 92nd Street Y in .

She shared that she spoke to her husband about the possibility she would succumb to her illness and how she hoped he would handle the loss.

'But I said to Tom, I'm like: "Okay, if, if something happens and I go first, I just have two requests. And one is that you should be sad for a very, very long time,"' Wilson remembered, according to People.

'The second one was throw me a party. I want it to be a celebration of life. I want it to be about people telling stories and joy and, remembering me in that way. And I think people, a lot of people want that, you know? I think there's room for that.'

She noted that her 2019 song Throw Me a Party was inspired by her cancer battle, during which she thought to herself: 'I don't know, I don't know what's gonna happen, but I hope I'm still here, you know, in a few years.'

Last March she posted to Instagram celebrating '10 years of being cancer free' and sharing her gratitude to those who saw her through the crisis.

The 69-year-old wife of Tom Cruise had a double mastectomy and reconstructive surgery while fighting the illness; the couple are pictured earlier this month