Mormon Wives star Layla Taylor has addressed her difficult eating disorder that at one point made her drop down to a very low 99lbs.
The 25-year-old star, who has been struggling with her weight since she was in high school, also shared that she was using GLP-1 medications but has recently stopped.
The model took to Instagram to alert her fans she was getting the treatment she needs.
'For the past two years, I've been struggling silently with an eating disorder I believed I had left behind in high school,' Taylor wrote in her caption.
In the accompanying video, the influencer looked very slender in colorful bikinis.
Mormon Wives star Layla Taylor has addressed her difficult eating disorder that has made her drop down to 99lbs at times
The 25-year-old reality TV star, who has been struggling with her weight since she was in high school, also shared that was using GLP-1 medications but has stopped
She also noted her issues with her eating disorder go back almost a decade.
'Far before I touched [GLP-1 medications] I've had my struggles,' said the star.
'It's been lonely and exhausting, fighting a battle in my own brain while trying to show up like everything is okay and receive comments daily on my body. Recovery has been messy and far from linear.'
Taylor also admitted that some days she feels strong, and others she 'feels really heavy.'
This comes after she looked sensational at the premiere of the most recent season of The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives.
She also admitted she has stopped using her GLP-1 medication. 'I'm still learning how to choose self-love over self-criticism,' she wrote.
'Even this video seeing my body side-by-side is triggering; But I'm still fighting — not just for me, but because my boys deserve a healthy, present mom,' Taylor added.
She showed before and after photos of her frame. 'So grateful for those in my life that helped me through that low time.'
It did not help either that she was turned away by a modeling agency, she shared on her reality TV show.
The Victoria's Secret model took to Instagram to alert her fans she was getting treatment
'For the past two years, I've been struggling silently with an eating disorder I believed I had left behind in high school,' Taylor wrote in her caption
The rejection made her feel that 'something is wrong with me that they didn't choose me.'
She told her friends: 'The last couple days I've been struggling so hard with confidence. It stems back to me never feeling like I'm enough.'
The pressure to make it as a model has been hard on her, she also shared.
In a confessional she said she used to have anorexia. 'I got pregnant with my first son when I was 19. Naturally there was a baby inside of me that I had to care for. I feel like I healed for a little bit,' Taylor noted.
'Then I got pregnant again and didn't spiral then. After me and my ex separated that's when I feel like I started to get back into those old ways.'
She weighed herself and discovered she was a very low 99 pounds. 'I don't think I'll ever be small enough in my head,' Taylor told her friends.
She started weight loss drugs.
She also noted her issues with her eating disorder go back almost a decade. 'Far before I touched [GLP-1 medications] I've had my struggles,' said the star. 'It's been lonely and exhausting, fighting a battle in my own brain while trying to show up like everything is okay and receive comments daily on my body. Recovery has been messy and far from linear'
'I initially got on them because I had stubborn weight that I couldn't get off,' she said. 'People don't talk about how addicting this is and how hard it is to get off. It's just this ever-living thing that's so negative and especially negative here in Utah. People are obsessed with how they look.'
This is not the first time she has talked about her body; she also addressed her body dysmorphia on season three of Mormon Wives.
'I've been skinny my whole life, though. I feel like everyone's concerned right now, but I've been tiny my whole entire life,' Taylor told Demi Engemann.
'Do you think there's a part of you that still kind of struggles with body dysmorphia?' Engemann asked.
'Oh, 100%,' Layla admitted. 'And it's sad because it's like, when you guys tell me, "Oh, you used to look like a healthy weight," like when you have an eating disorder, the word "healthy" triggers me.'
Season five production of Mormon Wives has paused. A source told People on Monday, 'Taylor [Frankie Paul] has some pretty serious stuff happening regarding her past, and they will see what happens. Until that resolves, they are off.'
If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, The Alliance for Eating Disorders provides a fully-staffed helpline at 1-866-662-1235, as well as free, therapist-led support groups.
