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Luisa Bradshaw-White has revealed she was in a psychiatric ward and 'nearly didn't survive' as she battled serious mental illness.
The former star, 51, whose character Tina Carter was brutally killed off in the soap in 2020, has opened up about her road to recovery in a post shared to Instagram on Thursday.
The actress previously revealed she's been on a long road to recovery after battling 'really bad Bipolar and an extreme eating disorder'.
And now she has taken to social media to reveal that she has now 'found her space in the world' after quitting fame and taking up a career in 'musical journeys'.
Alongside a selfie, she penned: 'I used to be an actor so I had a place to put those big feelings, but it didn't feel like where I was supposed to be.
'I also tried to suppress those big feelings and that led to a serious mental illness, psychiatric hospitals and something I nearly didn't survive. I now feel like I have found my space in the world.
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Luisa Bradshaw-White, 51, has revealed she was in a psychiatric ward and 'nearly didn't survive' as she battled a serious mental illness
The former EastEnders star, whose character Tina Carter was brutally killed off in the soap in 2020, has opened up about her road to recovery in a post shared to Instagram on Thursday
'I don't try to hide my big feelings. I know they are powerful indicators for how to live my life fully.
'I know that when I go in deep to the big feelings I experience, with a feeling of curiosity and love, i emerge out the other side with new wisdom with new insights and feeling so much more self love and clarity about who I am. I am not afraid of the dark.
'I now create musical journeys for free form dance and Breathwork ceremonies using my big feelings.
'I listen deeply to spirit to create waves of music to help me express all I feel about life and the life I have lived and all that wants to move thru my body. [sic]
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'My favourite thing about my life now is that I have found people like me who want to come and dance and breathe to feel all this too.
'And somehow they move thru some of the same feelings that I have been experiencing. I'm so grateful that I have access to all these big, wild emotions.'
She continued: 'If you would like to come and experience and explore your own deep feelings you would be so welcome.
'Sometimes it takes a while to find them… & Sometimes they are there in the discomfort of just turning up new to something, raw and out of your comfort zone.'
This comes after she admitted, 'I cry every day' in an emotional Instagram post last year.
Candidly discussing her feelings with fans, she wrote: 'Finding it hard to post these days as the experiences I am having can't fit into words.
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'My ability to feel just keeps expanding. And when I say this I mean feeling ALL of it!
'I am nearly always cracked wide open at the beauty of life….. and the pain. Devastatingly beautiful.
'I cry every day. I can't stop. There are so many similarities to when I was diagnosed Bipolar years ago and then sadly heavily medicated.
'It makes me question the diagnosis and DEFINITELY question the medication but that is another story and another timeline. WE HAVE BEEN MADE TO FEAR OUR FEELINGS OUR EMOTIONS.
'I have so many people around me experiencing the same. I am so grounded and without fear. I am able to hold these intense energies and frequencies. I love myself so fiercely in this intense energy.
'I cry to move the energy. I cry because life is so beautiful. I cry because I get to be this free, this sovereign in this lifetime.
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'I cry because I am not alone, even when there are no human souls around me I have everything in nature holding me.
'I cry because it gets to be THIS GOOD TO FEEL EVERYTHING. It has never felt so good and so safe to feel so much.
'Whatever you are experiencing in this portal we are in… surrender. And love.'
Fans were quick to share support for the soap star in her comments after she bravely opened up about her feelings.
Some wrote: 'I can relate to this so much. I sent to feel everything so much more intensely than anyone I know. It's extremely overwhelming but I feel like it's our power'
'This is such a beautiful post. So much to think about and feel grateful for. Thrilled this is your life now. Xx'
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Luisa shot to fame in 1988 as Herte in A Friendship in Vienna, before later landing roles in Grange Hill, The Bill and Birds of a Feather.
She first appeared in Holby City on season four as a midwife on the hospital maternity ward called Lisa Fox.
Luisa was a series regular and appeared in the programme from 2001 to 2005.
The star later appeared in BBC medical drama Doctors, before landing her role in EastEnders as Tina
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