Molly-Mae Hague Opens Up About Postpartum Struggles

 fears she battled postpartum with her daughter, Bambi as she 'can't explain the difference' in how she feels after giving birth to her son. 

The influencer, 27, welcomed her baby boy, named Midas Thomas, with fiancé , also 27, earlier this month. 

In her first video back, Molly-Mae spoke candidly about the struggle of becoming a first-time mother with her now three-year-old daughter Bambi. 

Post-partum depression is a serious mood disorder that occurs during pregnancy or up to a year after childbirth. Symptoms include persistent sadness, anxiety, difficulty bonding with the baby, and feelings of worthlessness.

Also in the video, Molly revealed she is 99.9% sure her family is now complete. She said: 'I just feel like I'm ready to stop at two. So, the fact that we were blessed with a boy and we have a son. We couldn't be luckier and I couldn't be happier.' 

The former Love Island star said after Bambi she 'mourned her old life' as she spoke about how she 'really struggled' in the first six months of becoming a first-time mother. 

She said: 'I feel like a completely different version of myself this time round to who I was postpartum with Bambi. There's no way to actually compare it. 

'A lot of you will know that postpartum with Bambi, I truly did struggle so much. I think looking back that I probably did have postpartum depression to some extent, definitely for the first three months to six months. 

'I honestly cannot remember a lot of that time with Bambi and feel like I've completely blurred it from my memory and tried to forget in a sad way. I was so out of my depth. I felt like I didn't have a clue what I was doing.   

'This is totally my opinion, you cannot compare the mental effects of going from zero to one and then one to two children. And that's just my opinion.'

Molly-Mae said she is aware she is only two weeks postpartum and life will get more challenging the older Midas gets, but after the birth of Bambi she felt 'part of her old life ended'. 

She said: 'Going from zero to one was really, really challenging. My brain couldn't comprehend that I'd just gone from being like the most selfish person with only myself to worry about for 23 years to suddenly my life, at the time, kind of felt like it had ended.

'I was like mourning my old life and I was grieving this version of myself that I knew I was never, ever going to get back.' 

Molly-Mae said life is easier having another child as she has already spent 'multiple years making the adjustment' of becoming a mother. 

She said: 'When you go from zero to one, you're trying to not only take care of this little baby that's been plonked on your lap, but also make that huge mental adjustment of like, "oh my god, my old life's gone". For that first stage for me I couldn't comprehend that it had just gone.'

Molly recalled a 'vivid memory' of the early newborn days when her sister Zoe came round to help with Bambi and then went home in the evening, back to her life. 

She said: 'I used to sit on the sofa with Bambi and I would like watch Zoe leave the house. 

'The envy and the jealousy that I had of her being able to come and enjoy Bambi, but then she could go back to her old independent selfish life. And I was sat here with this newborn baby at 23 thinking my life was kind of over. That's genuinely how like I remember that the first time around.'

She added: 'I've spent three and a half years adapting to this new lifestyle, adapting to being a mum, processing that I now forever will not be first priority.'

Elsewhere in her video, Molly-Mae revealed Midas was not named after the Greek King.

The couple shared his name with the world when boxer Tommy proudly sported the newborn's moniker on his shorts for his clash with Eddie Hall in Manchester on June 13.

The name Midas links to Greek mythology and the king of Phrygia, who was granted a wish that everything he touched turned to gold.

However, the story is actually a cautionary tale as Midas soon learned the downside to his gift when he turned his food, drink, and even his daughter to gold. 

Molly revealed this was not the reason they picked the name, and that their son was actually named after a robot boxing film, Real Steel. 

The 2011 film, which stars Hugh Jackman and Evangeline Lilly, is set in a near-future world where high-tech, 2,000-pound robots have replaced human boxers in the ring.

Explaining the inspiration behind her newborn's name, the Maebe founder said: 'We have named our son Midas. His middle name is Thomas and his surname is Fury.

'So he's Midas Thomas Fury. We had this name for a boy for quite a few years.

'I saw a couple of comments when the name was being rumoured about how the name originates from Greek mythology because there was a king called King Midas, and he was the king.

'I believe the story is that everything he touches turns to gold, and I do absolutely just like love that saying.'

The phrase 'the Midas touch' is used to describe someone who has achieved great success, but it also has connotations of greed and foolishness.