Lorde has opened up about her identity dysphoria after she was accused of ‘gender baiting’ in a recent interview.
The singer, 28, posed for a striking series of snaps with Dazed magazine before sitting down to talk about her life, confessing: ‘I’ve constantly f****d up since I was a teenager’.
Lorde – who uses she/her pronouns – came under fire in May when she appeared to come out as non-binary in a baffling interview.
In a chat for Rolling Stone, Chappell Roan asked Lorde if she was non-binary, to which she replied: ‘I’m a woman except for the days when I’m a man,’ adding she fell ‘in the middle gender wise’ but still identifies as a cis woman.
Pressed on the matter in her chat with Dazed, Lorde confessed that she’d ‘misquoted’ Chapell asking if she was non-binary, admitting: ‘I feel really bad. She said, very sweetly, something like, “So your pronouns are changing?”’
Clearing up how she identifies, she said that some days she ‘can’t wear women’s clothes’ and there are days where she feels ‘totally out-of-body’.
Lorde explained her identity dysphoria after being accused of ‘gender baiting’ and opened up about drug use and health woes in a searingly honest chat with Dazed magazine
The singer, 28, posed for a striking series of snaps with Dazed magazine before sitting down to talk about her life, confessing: ‘I’ve constantly f****d up since I was a teenager’
Lorde – who uses she/her pronouns – came under fire in May when she appeared to come out as non-binary in a baffling interview with Chapell Roan (pictured)
Lorde added that she felt a ‘pure version’ of herself when she first bound her chest to give the illusion of having no breasts, but said she was still on a journey to figure out what her identity meant to her.
She explained: ‘I just think it takes time to metabolise and find itself. I’m excited to find out where that lands, if it ever does land. Your whole life it keeps unfurling.’
Elsewhere in the chat, Lorde candidly discussed her use of ecstasy, known chemically as MDMA or molly.
Lorde previously credited MDMA therapy – taking a controlled dose of the drug in a supervised medical setting, alongside sessions with a trained therapist – with crediting her stage fright.
Doubling down on her remarks, when asked if MDMA was ‘her drug’ of choice, she simply stated: ‘Yeah’.
Yet when asked when she first took the drug, she confessed: ‘Too young.’
Discussing how chemicals in drugs alter perception, she went on to speak about her battle with premenstrual dysphoric disorder – a very severe form of PMS that causes a range of emotional and physical symptoms in the week or two before a period.
Lorde explained: ‘When I came off my birth control, I had these very significant dips in mood every month and got diagnosed with PMDD, which is a proper clinical depression that happens cyclically.
‘There’s actual treatment for it – I take the tiniest dose of Prozac, snapped in half, once a month. And it genuinely has made a huge difference to me. It’s been, like, exact days of the month – but it’s changed the game.’
Clearing up how she identifies, she said that some days she ‘can’t wear women’s clothes’ and there are days where she feels ‘totally out-of-body’
Lorde felt a ‘pure version’ of herself when she first bound her chest to give the illusion of having no breasts, but she is still on a journey to figure out what her identity means to her
She explained of her identity: ‘I just think it takes time to metabolise and find itself. I’m excited to find out where that lands, if it ever does land. Your whole life it keeps unfurling’
Discussing how chemicals in drugs alter perception, she went on to speak about her battle with premenstrual dysphoric disorder – a very severe form of PMS
Lorde said of her PMDD: ‘There’s actual treatment for it – I take the tiniest dose of Prozac, snapped in half, once a month. And it genuinely has made a huge difference to me’
Lorde has been making a musical comeback this year, sending fans into a frenzy back in April when she released her first new music in four years.
The New Zealand-born singer, real name Ella Yelich-O’Connor, released a snippet of the song What It Is, which appeared to be reflecting on the break down of the tumultuous relationship that began in her teenage years.
The following month she announced the title of her fourth studio album – Virgin – while debuting the shocking album artwork – an X-ray of what appeared to be her pelvic area, with her hip bones, belt buckle, and zipper visible.
It was one particular detail in the X-ray that got fans talking – a T-shaped object that appeared to be an IUD (intrauterine device), a type of birth control that is placed in the uterus.
In another twist, she then released a more explicit cover for the vinyl, featuring what appeared to be her genitals beneath a pair of see-through plastic pants.
Taking to social media to express their shock, some fans worried about their family members potentially seeing the NSFW cover.
However, not everyone was so critical of the vinyl’s artwork and others described it as ‘beautiful’ and far from being shocking.
After seemingly exposing herself in the artwork, Lorde explained that she had once struggled so badly with her body image that all she thought about was ‘weighing as little as possible’.
In May, Lorde announced the title of her fourth studio album – Virgin – while debuting the shocking album artwork – an X-ray of what appeared to be her pelvic area
Ahe then released a more explicit cover for the vinyl, featuring what appeared to be her genitals beneath a pair see-through pants
In a candid interview with Jack Saunders on Radio 1 she told how at the start of 2023 she was struggling mentally and wasn’t able to focus on any creative pursuits or making music.
At Glastonbury she had said on stage that she thought she’d ‘never make music again’ – a comment with Jack asked her to clarify in their interview.
Lorde explained: ‘At the beginning of 2023 I was just not in a great way in a lot of ways and I’d never felt more distant from my creativity. I didn’t think I had anything to offer and I hadn’t had an idea in a while.
‘This was a period when I was trying to weigh as little as possible and going to sleep and thinking about food and weight and wake up thinking about food and exercise and that was creative pursuit you know…
‘That was where it was all going and at that time I was like I really need to stop doing this because it’s blocking all my artistry.
‘Once that went away it all started to come back!’
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