Lauren Goodger has opened up for the first time about what the doctors told her following the stillbirth of her second child, Lorena, in a heartbreaking interview.
Speaking about the harrowing ordeal, the TOWIE star, 38, revealed she was told her daughter would have lived if she had been born seven hours earlier and how she doesn’t feel like she can ever be happy again.
Lauren gave birth to her second daughter in July 2022 but she passed away just minutes after she was born with her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck.
Lauren elected to have a home birth after falling pregnant with her second child with her then-partner Charles Drury, who is also dad to her daughter Larose, three.
When her waters broke, Lauren contacted her doula and midwife who both told her to stay at home where she could have her planned water birth.
Lauren recalled during an interview with the Guardian that the nurses told her she would be ‘better off’ at home because in hospital there was a risk of infection.
Lauren Goodger has opened up for the first time about what the doctors told her following the stillbirth of her second child, Lorena, in a heartbreaking interview (pictured recently)
Speaking about the harrowing ordeal, the TOWIE star, 38, revealed she was told her daughter would have lived if she had been born seven hours earlier (pictured Lorena’s hand)
The reality personality was checked over by the midwife that evening, where she was told Lorena’s heartbeat was normal but a day later she was still not in labour.
Women should be offered a labour induction if it does not begin within the first 24 hours after their waters break and advised to go to hospital, nice guidelines state.
Lauren said she was advised to go into hospital but was ultimately told that it was her decision to make, so she stayed at home for another day.
Later that day the midwife checked Lorena’s heartbeat again, which was normal.
The following day, Lauren’s contractions finally began but when the midwife returned she sadly could not find the unborn baby’s heartbeat and Lauren was rushed to emergency care.
Recalling her experience outside the hospital, Lauren said: ‘Lorena’s ‘head was literally hanging out … No one was expecting me. They were all looking at me. My partner was screaming: ‘Can you just put her in a room?’
Recounting her two-hour labour, Lauren said: ‘Ten doctors come in to try and save her, give her the adrenaline, and everything, and it was too late.’ She was later told that if Lorena had been delivered roughly seven hours earlier, she’d have lived.
She said: ‘I wish I was checked more or I’d gone in on the second day and got checked on a monitor. But I can’t change what’s happened. And you don’t think that’s going to happen.’
Lauren gave birth to her second daughter in July 2022 but she passed away just minutes after she was born with her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck (recent stock image)
Lauren, who is no longer will Lorena’s father Charles (pictured left), was also going through a break-up with him at the time of her death
Lauren, who is no longer will Lorena’s father Charles, was also going through a break-up with him at the time of her death.
The day after her baby’s funeral he was arrested and subsequently charged with inflicting actual bodily harm and using controlling and coercive behaviour.
Charles was later cleared after Lauren dropped the charges, which she explained was for the benefit of Larose’s relationship with her father.
The interview comes soon after Lauren spoke about how she ‘hasn’t got anyone’ as opened up about the crippling loneliness she’s endured.
In the two years since Lorena’s death, Lauren – who has also suffered other traumas such as the death of ex Jake McLean and the split from Charles – Lauren has claimed that friends and family have ‘vanished’ from her life.
Speaking in a candid interview with Paul C Brunson on his We Need To Talk podcast, Lauren detailed the struggles she’s been enduring as she goes through life with just her two-year-old daughter Larose by her side, noting: ‘She’s all I’ve got’.
The TV star also admitted that she reckons that she’s ‘100% suffering’ with depression as she told of her lack of emotional support amid he traumas.
The interview comes soon after Lauren spoke about how she ‘hasn’t got anyone’ as opened up about the crippling loneliness she’s endured
Speaking in a candid interview with Paul C Brunson on his We Need To Talk podcast this week, Lauren detailed the struggles she’s been enduring as she goes through life with just her two-year-old daughter Larose [pictured] by her side, noting: ‘She’s all I’ve got’
During the chat, Lauren broke down in tears as she spoke of Lorena’s death and the impact it had on her life.
When asked how she gets through the grief of losing Lorena, Lauren tearfully responded: ‘Larose, because she’s all I’ve got. She’s literally all I’ve got and she’s the only person that I love.’
Lauren – who also opened up about being forced to have an abortion in the chat – then told how she never cries in front of people and always tried to hold her emotions inside.
Paul then touched on how ‘lonely’ Lauren is, with the emotional star admitting: ‘I used to have a lot of people, now I haven’t got anyone and I don’t know why. My life has got worse and worse and on top of it, it’s like life stresses as well. I haven’t been left alone.
After discussing financial issues she’s been having, Lauren said: ‘I’m still carrying on, but how long am I going to carry on for? How do I get through it? Because I have no choice.’
Lauren went on to say that she will never let daughter Larose see how unhappy she is, noting that she puts on a cheerful mum persona and enjoys days out with the youngster.
She went on to add: ‘I don’t have any friends’.
Certified life coach Paul then went through the five stages of trauma, noting that depression is one of them, leading Lauren to admit that she feels depressed.
She said: ‘Do you know what, I’ve never had depression in my life but I’m suffering I think, 100%’
The podcast also saw Paul talk about the need of family and friends’ emotional support to get people through trauma, with Lauren noting: ‘I don’t have that.’
‘I’m trying but it’s really hard. There are friends there but they’re not. I’m trying. My daughter’s friends, because she goes to pre-school, I’ve started to talk to their mums.’
Despite having the other parents over for play dates with her daughter, Lauren confessed that she’s worried they won’t ‘accept’ her because she’s ‘different, but insists that she’s ‘trying to build a new life’.
Sharing further about the lack of support in her life, Lauren touched on the hernia she suffered with last month and told how she didn’t receive a single visitor amid her painful injury.
‘I’ve just had this hernia and I’ve not had one person come around to see if I’m OK’, she explained.
‘Life is hard but I’m gonna be alright because this is me and I will get through it.’
The podcast also saw Paul talk about the need of family and friends’ emotional support to get people through trauma, with Lauren noting: ‘I don’t have that.’ ‘I’m trying but it’s really hard. There are friends there but they’re not’
During the chat, Lauren told how she ‘rushed through’ her grieving period because of her daughter Larose, going on to state that she now wants ‘normality’ in her life.
Touching on her love life, she added: ‘I’ve not been with anyone, because I’m not ready. Because there’s work I need to do on myself, it’s got to be right for Larose, and also, I am Lauren. I need that, I need to be in love.
‘If I can’t get it from my family and friends, I need to make a new home unit. That’s why I am thinking that I need to be ready to start dating.’
It comes after Lauren revealed last month that she feels abandoned by family and friends after ‘everyone vanished’ from her life following the tragic death of baby daughter Lorena.
Lauren, who is also mother to two-year-old Larose, said that as time has passed her support system has dropped off and she’s never experienced such loneliness.
Telling OK!: ‘As time’s gone on, after what I went through losing Lorena, people think, “Oh, it’s been two years now, she’s alright”. But it’s actually worse because you become lonelier. I’ve never experienced loneliness like it in my life’.
Lauren said she’s lost contact with close friends and explained that while her parents don’t see as much of Larose as she would hope, elder sister Nicola is the one always on hand for support.
It comes after Lauren revealed last month that she feels abandoned by family and friends after ‘everyone vanished’ from her life following the tragic death of baby daughter Lorena
She also said how she receives help from with ex, and father of both daughters, Charles Drury, 27, with whom she co-parents however he lives three and a half hours away
Telling the publication: ‘No one steps up, people have DMed me on Instagram to say ‘Exactly the same thing happened to me, as soon as I had this loss [losing a baby] everyone vanished.’, I don’t know what it does to people, but they step back, they don’t step forward’.
She also said how she receives help from with ex, and father of both daughters, Charles Drury, 27, with whom she co-parents however he lives three and a half hours away from her home in Essex.
Saying: ‘In an emergency he’s unavailable. I meet him twice a week [to pick Larose up and drop her off] halfway’.
If you have been affected by anything in this article, please contact the UK Child Bereavement line on 0800 02 888 40 or the The Lullaby Trust on 0808 8026868.
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