Kelsey Parker has revealed she is taking ‘each day as it comes’ as she opens up for the first time about the loss of her baby Phoenix.
The podcaster, 34, suffered heartbreak in June after her son Phoenix – her first child with boyfriend Will Lindsay – was ‘born sleeping.’
Kelsey was previously married to The Wanted singer Tom Parker who died in March 2022 aged 33 from glioblastoma.
In her first interview since the tragedy, Kelsey told The Mirror: ‘I didn’t think I’d be living a relived experience, first losing Tom and now losing Phoenix. But I think with any grief and loss, you have to take each day as it come and work through it.’
Kelsey is mother to Aurelia, six, and Bodhi, four, with her late husband Tom and revealed she has discussed Phoenix’s death with them.
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The podcaster, 34, suffered heartbreak in June after her son Phoenix – her first child with boyfriend Will Lindsay – was ‘born sleeping’
‘I spoke about it like I did with Tom, I just told them the truth,’ she said. ‘I think that’s all you can do with your children, in anything you’re going through, be honest.’
Kelsey believes because the children had gone through losing their father, it made accepting Phoenix’s death easier.
‘We’re sort of almost like the Addams Family because we’ve gone though so much death and darkness. The children are very aware,’ she said.
Kelsey credited Tom’s parents Noreen and Nige for being their for her as she copes with the loss of Phoenix.
The influencer said she is still very close with Noreen and she gave Kelsey her blessing when she told her she was pregnant with Phoenix.
Kelsey threw herself into routine to cope with her grief and made sure to always be at the school gate to pick up Aurelia and Bodhi to show them ‘you have to be brave and show up’.
Kelsey confirmed the loss of her unborn third child, a son she had planned to name Phoenix, one week before his planned due date.
Breaking the news in a poem, she announced the news on Instagram in June.
Kelsey was previously married to The Wanted singer Tom Parker who died in March 2022 aged 33 from glioblastoma (pictured with their children Aurelia, six, and Bodhi, four)
Kelsay said: ‘I didn’t think I’d be living a relived experience, first losing Tom and now losing Phoenix. You have to take each day as it comes and work through it’
She penned: ‘The world grew quiet as you arrived, So loved, so longed for, yet not alive. Our precious boy, our angel light, Born with wings, took silent flight’.
‘We named you Phoenix, brave and bright. A soul of love, of warmth and light Though we never heard you cry, You’ll live in hearts that won’t ask why.
‘No breath you drew, no eyes to see, Still, you mean everything to me. You’ll journey with us, softly near, in every sigh, in every tear.
Taking to her Instagram stories: she added: ‘Before I receive an influx of lovely messages and heartfelt wishes, I wanted to just say that I truly appreciate everything you are all going to say and share.
‘But with the news being so raw, I would really like to ensure that we as a family are given space and time to process this devastating and earth-shattering news.
‘I love you all and thank you for your understanding and space. Love always, Kelsey, Will, and the Parker Family’.
Kelsey met tree surgeon Will on a night out last year, with the couple announcing their relationship in September.
On Sunday, Kelsey shared a video of herself on the beach during the trip alongside a heartbreaking letter to Phoenix.
The podcast host penned: ‘A Letter to My Angel. It’s hard to find the words.
‘There is no preparing for this kind of heartbreak. I had dreams for you, your first giggle, your first steps, the way you would cling to me when the world felt too big.’
Kelsey paid tribute to her late baby in a heartfelt Instagram post on Sunday after tragically losing her third child
On Sunday, Kelsey shared a video of herself on the beach during her family holiday alongside a heartbreaking letter to Phoenix
Kelsey penned: ‘There is no preparing for this kind of heartbreak. I had dreams for you, your first giggle, your first steps, the way you would cling to me when the world felt too big’
Kelsey continued: ‘All those moments I imagined are now part of a different kind of story — one I never thought I’d have to write to you.
‘But this isn’t just about pain, it is about the quiet but powerful love you brought into this world.
‘About how you changed me — made me softer, more grounded, and somehow even more grateful.
‘Grief and gratitude can exist together. I grieve what was lost, but I am so thankful I had the chance to carry you for 9 months and love you unconditionally, I told you every day I loved you.
‘You will always be mine. My son. My light. My why.
‘I share this not because I have answers, but because silence can be lonely.
‘And if you are walking through a similar kind of grief, please know you’re not alone. There’s a quiet sisterhood in this heartbreak, and I feel you deeply.
‘For now, I’m learning to live with the ache, to breathe through the waves, and to find little pockets of peace in the middle of the storm.
‘And I know that even though I can’t hold you in my arms, I carry you in my heart, always.’
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