Country singer Jimmie Allen tearfully recalled how he contemplated suicide ‘every single day’ after being accused of sexual assault by multiple women in 2023.
While speaking to Kathie Lee Gifford about the allegations against him, the 38-year-old performer revealed how he close he was to ending his life after two women filed sexual assault lawsuits against him.
‘I was sitting there and I literally felt like the whole world had just collapsed,’ the father-of-six told said during an April 24 YouTube video. ‘Because the first thing my brain goes to is not the career, it’s ‘How am I going to provide for my kids?”
He continued: ‘I had three then. I’m thinking to myself, how am I going to provide for my family? And then it hit me. My life insurance covered suicide.’
Country singer Jimmie Allen tearfully recalled how he contemplated suicide ‘every single day’ after being accused of sexual assault by multiple women in 2023
‘I don’t feel that way now, but in that moment, when you feel like you have nothing in the midst of a society where it’s no longer innocent until proven guilty, you know you’re guilty,’
While clarifying he no longer feels ‘that way now,’ Allen said in that moment he struggled to navigate ‘in the midst of a society where it’s no longer innocent until proven guilty.’
‘I moved everything over to one phone, all my evidence, pictures, text messages, videos, everything. I was putting bullets in my gun clip. Right when I put the last bullet in, this was the freaky thing. I don’t get notifications to my phone… a text came through,’ he remembered.
Allen detailed the moment he saw a message from his friend, Chuck Adams, which read: ‘Ending it isn’t the answer.’
‘When I read those words that he text me, I read them again. I just stopped. I remember I called one of my buddies and he came up. I gave him my gun,’ he said.
As he handed over his gun, Allen said he told his friend to take it because he didn’t ‘need it.’
‘My mom flew in, and then I started receiving phone calls from different artists checking in on me, saying they love me, they care about me, they know who I am,’ the singer noted.
While he still battles depression and suicidal thoughts, Allen said he began seeing a professional.
While speaking to Kathie Lee Gifford about the allegations against him, the 38-year-old performer revealed how he close he was to ending his life after two women filed sexual assault lawsuits against him
‘I was sitting there and I literally felt like the whole world had just collapsed,’ the father-of-six told said during an April 24 YouTube video . ‘Because the first thing my brain goes to is not the career, it’s ‘How am I going to provide for my kids?”
‘Every single day, I remember battling: Do I want to live? Do I not want to live?’ he said. ‘When bills get due. I’m like, ‘Man, my family would have X amount of dollars if I would’ve took care of something,’ but I realized that’s not the way to do it.’
‘After a few months, I started to look at the situation different. It went from, ‘God, why is this happening to me?’ to ‘God, what am I supposed to learn?” he added.
Now, he’s found purpose in being honest with himself and ‘everyone else.’
‘I am healing and growing for me and my children,’ Allen said.
He first became a father in 2015 after welcoming his son Aadyn. He has chosen to keep the identity of his firstborn’s mother private.
He and his estranged wife Alexis Gale share a six-month-old son, named Cohen, as well as daughters Naomie, born in March 2020, and Zara James, two.
Additionally, he and his friend, Danielle, welcomed twins Amari and Aria last summer.
