Pregnant Holly Hagan thanked her fans for their support on Tuesday following after her sister’s death and admitted she is ‘having breakdowns.’
The former Geordie Shore star, 33, revealed she is expecting her second child with her husband Jacob Blyth over the weekend, which came four weeks after the death of her half sister Darci at the age of 19.
Holly said the last few months had been an ’emotional whirlwind’ but added she was ‘staying strong.’
Speaking in a video shared to her Instagram Story, she explained:Â ‘Thank you for all the support you have given me over the last few months.Â
‘It has been a whole whirlwind of emotions. I’ve never had this many messages in my lifeÂ
‘As a parent or sister or anyone in the world, you can just image how it feels. But I am doing ok. I am strong.’
Pregnant Holly Hagan thanked her fans for their support on Tuesday following after her sister’s death and admitted she is ‘having breakdowns’Â
The former Geordie Shore star, 33, revealed she is expecting her second child with her husband Jacob Blyth over the weekend, which came after the death of her half sister Darci
Holly concluded: ‘I do have my moments where I break down and that’s completely normal. For the most part I am being strong but that doesn’t mean it’s not hard.’
 ‘I don’t want all my posts to be depressing and make people cry but this is just where my life is at right now.’Â
The TV personality  revealed she is expecting her second child with her husband Jacob with a sweet Instagram video on Sunday.
It comes just a month after she announced the tragic death of her half sister Darci Rose.
She penned in the caption of her pregnancy post: ‘Our little rainbow amongst the storm. Baby Blyth no2 coming May 2026.’Â
The video showed heartbreaking messages she previously sent her sister to tell her that she was pregnant.
Jacob and Holly – who wed in 2022 – welcomed son Alpha-Jax, now two, in June 2023.
Last week Holly shared an emotional ‘life update’ as she navigates her grief following the death of her sister Darci at the age of 19.Â
Holly said the last few months had been an ’emotional whirlwind’ but added she was ‘staying strong’Â
The TV personality revealed she is expecting her second child with her husband Jacob with a sweet Instagram video on SundayÂ
Darci’s death was announced by Holly last month and police later confirmed that she had fallen ‘seriously ill’, when she was believed to have taken drugs (seen together)Â
Darci’s death was announced by Holly last month and police later confirmed that she had fallen ‘seriously ill’, when she was believed to have taken drugs.
Holly said at the time that her family had been ‘traumatized in every sense of the word’ as they struggled to come to terms with their loss.
Two days after Darci’s funeral, Holly posted a video on TikTok, admitting in the caption:Â ‘I wasn’t sure whether to share or not as honestly this is such a vulnerable time and I’m not really someone who sits and cries to the camera usually but this is the reality of where I’m at right now.’Â
In the video Holly said: ‘It is and has been the toughest four weeks of our entire life.
‘I actually just don’t really know how to process this whole situation, and neither do my parents. I don’t think anybody realises how much this affects everybody in their lives.
‘The amount of people that’s been affected by this is just absolutely mindblowing. Like, my world has stopped. Her parent’s world has stopped. We feel, like, stuck and then the world keeps spinning.’
Holly broke down as she admitted:Â ‘I probably shouldn’t have tried to do this video just before I was going to go out.
‘Usually in the day I can take my mind off it and do other things, it does mean I can be in a different mode other than just sitting and letting myself think about it.
‘But usually on a night that’s obviously when it’s really hard, really, really hard for everyone.’
She then explained that she didn’t know ‘how to come back’ to her social media accounts following the tragedy and was hoping she would be able to return to her work and ‘not speak about it’.Â
In her pregnancy announcement the video showed heartbreaking messages she previously sent her sister the news
The clip then stated: ‘Coming May 2026’ in the caption
Jacob and Holly – who wed in 2022 – welcomed son Alpha-Jax, now two, in June 2023
‘But right now I feel like I’m weighted by lead,’ she admitted. ‘It feels like I’m just so heavy, everything is feeling like it’s ten times harder to do.’
‘I don’t want to make this some sort of grief account, I don’t want to make every video depressing and talking about it because I don’t feel ready to speak about everything yet, but one day I will.
‘Right now it’s just so fresh. You just never think that this is going to happen. Sorry guys, I did think I’d be able to hold it together, but clearly not.
‘This whole situation has felt incredibly surreal, I’ve felt like I’m in a film as these things only happen in films or in soaps and are over-dramatised but to have to live through it, I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.’
On Tuesday Holly honoured her ‘forever friend’ following her funeral.
She shared a photograph of Darci’s order of service on her Instagram Story, as she said: ‘I hope we did you proud’.
Paying tribute to her sister in the post, Holly wrote: ‘My sister, my forever friend. His auntie, his greatest gift. Now our guardian angel.’
Alongside the order of service image, Holly said: ‘I hope we did you proud today baby girl. We all miss and love you so much.’
