Christine McGuinness broke down in tears as she spoke about her fear of death on BBC’s spiritual hiking show Pilgrimage.
The TV personality, 36, said it ‘absolute petrifies her’ that ‘one day she will have to leave her children’, adding she ‘wouldn’t know what she’d do without them’.
The mother-of-three took part in a 137-mile religious trek with a group of celebrities, all with different beliefs, faiths, and backgrounds.
Christine and her ex-husband Paddy share twins Leo and Penelope, 10, and Felicity, seven, who all have autism like their mother.
Despite now admitting, she’s ‘not scared of dying anymore’ thanks to the show, Pilgrimage takes a look at Christine while she was battling the fear at the time.
Christine McGuinness, 36, broke down in tears as she spoke about her fear of death on BBC ‘s spiritual hiking show Pilgrimage
The TV personality said it ‘absolute petrifies her’ that ‘one day she will have to leave her children’, adding she ‘wouldn’t know what she’d do without them’
Sharing a short clip of the programme on her Instagram, Christine said: ‘I just don’t know what I’d do without my kids. I don’t know what I’d do without my babies.
‘I just wanted to come back and look at the church again and really appreciate it, because I don’t enjoy the feeling of death. As a mum it absolutely petrifies me. My biggest fear is leaving my children one day.
‘My children are considered different because they’re all autistic and so am I and I have often had comments like “I bet you wish there was a cure or something to fix your children”, and I really don’t.
‘I think every single child is a miracle. It just makes me want to be around forever because they’re so magical.
‘It is my purpose in life and I know I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t have my children. I also don’t know what they’d do without me, It scares me. It really does.’
She captioned the post: ‘The reason you’re alive is to chase dreams that seem crazy to most people but feel like destiny to you.
‘My dream is make our wonderfully diverse world a more inclusive and understanding place for future generations. Blessed to have this shown during World Autism Acceptance week ❤️
#Pilgrimage continues Friday @bbctwo all three episodes streaming now on @bbciplayer’.
The mother-of-three took part in a 137-mile religious trek with a group of celebrities, all with different beliefs, faiths, and backgrounds
Sharing a short clip of the programme on her Instagram, Christine said: ‘I just don’t know what I’d do without my kids. I don’t know what I’d do without my babies’
She added: ‘It is my purpose in life and I know I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t have my children. I also don’t know what they’d do without me, It scares me. It really does’
Christine and her ex-husband Paddy share twins Leo and Penelope, 10, and Felicity, seven, who all have autism like their mother
Meanwhile, on Wednesday Christine revealed that she is ‘not scared of dying anymore’ as she reflected on her Pilgrimage experience on The One Show.
During her appearance alongside her co-stars Spencer Matthews and Sonali Shah, Christine opened up about how the hike was transformative.
‘I took away so much,’ she said. ‘For me personally, it was not being so scared of dying anymore.
‘That was something that was really keeping me awake at night, I’ve got three children.’
Christine spoke about the concerns of a parent and how she worries about not being around to look after them.
‘But for me it was really taking over my mind,’ she added.
Christine looked sensational for her appearance on the talk show, sporting a leather look maroon top with matching flared trousers.
The star also opened up about how the experience helped her feel more confident and comfortable as she confessed she usually struggles in social situations due to her autism.
Meanwhile, on Wednesday Christine revealed that she is ‘not scared of dying anymore’ as she reflected on her Pilgrimage experience on The One Show
During her appearance on The One Show alongside Pilgrimage co-stars Spencer Matthews and Sonali Shah, Christine opened up about how the hike was transformative
She explained: ‘For me, the biggest thing personally that has changed is being more confident and comfortable around others.
‘I always felt like I didn’t fit in and always struggled in social situations but doing this pilgrimage has made me feel like I want to do that more.
‘I want to spend time with people, I want to make friends, I want to talk more and actually I can do it and I am more able to do it than I thought I was.’
She added that the Pilgrimage made her realise ‘I am not as bad at socialising as I thought I was.
‘If I’m in the right company. I can thrive and be happy and I can learn a lot from others.’
