Big Brother contestant Hallie broke down in tears during Wednesday night’s episode, admitting she has been struggling to ‘express herself’ in the house.
The youth worker, 18, who come out as transgender to her fellow housemates on the second day, also admitted that she hopes to make ‘other trans women and men proud’, during her time on the ITV show.
Hallie, who got very emotional throughout the episode, turned to confide in Zak, 28, about how she has been feeling.
She said: ‘I don’t want to get upset but I’m in such a negative mindset, I feel so negative.
‘Like I’ve not seen the positive at all and I hate that. I just feel really f****** down right now. I’m finding it hard to express myself, like completely truthfully if you know what I mean.’
Upset: Big Brother contestant Hallie, 18, broke down in tears during Wednesday night’s episode, admitting she has been struggling to ‘express herself’ in the house
Emotional: The youth worker, who come out as transgender, also admitted that she hopes to make ‘other trans women and men proud’, during her time on the show
Zak asked: ‘Is that because you feel like everyone is a stranger or is it because there are loads of cameras around you?’
‘Yeah I feel like it’s just hard, like It’s overwhelming being thrown in the mix with 15 other people’, Hallie continued.
Zak added: ‘But that’s what we signed up for. So listen, stay strong and talk to us whenever you want.’
After Zak tried to comfort Hallie, she later went into The Diary Room to speak to Big Brother and become emotional again when opening up about why she come on the show.
Hallie, who is the youngest in the group, said: ‘I don’t know why I’m feeling very emotional.
‘I just want to show other trans women and men that they can be confident, they can be proud, they can be who they are unapologetically and just show them that if can do it they can.
‘Everyone is so lovely, I love it here and I don’t want to leave this week. I really don’t want to leave.’
Hallie chose not to tell her fellow series contestants her story on the launch night but had a change of hear the following day.
Support network: Hallie, who got very emotional throughout the episode, turned to confide in Zak, 28, (pictured) about how she has been feeling
Opening up: Hallie later went into The Diary Room to speak to Big Brother and become emotional again when opening up about why she come on the show
Tears: She said: ‘I just want to show other trans women and men that they can be confident, they can be proud, they can be who they are unapologetically and just show them that if can do it they can’
Opening up to the group, she said: ‘Hey guys, I just have something to say. Yesterday I feel like I wasn’t being 100% authentic in myself.
‘I thought I’d let everyone know I’m trans, if you didn’t know already. I just thought I’d make that loud and clear. I’m a trans woman if you didn’t know.’
Hallie’s fellow housemates give her a hug, with Chanelle saying: ‘Good for you. That’s very brave of you.’
As the housemates showed their support to Hallie, Dylan said: ‘This is a moment. I like it.’
Hallie said: ‘I don’t know why I was nervous,’ prompting Farida to say: ‘You don’t need to be nervous.’
Trish then told Hallie: ‘We’ve got you.’
Hallie is not the first transgender housemate to appear on Big Brother – trans woman Nadia Almada won the show in in 2004 and trans man Luke Anderson triumphed in 2012.
BIG BROTHER 2023: MEET THE CONTESTANTS!
JENKIN
AGE: 25
PROFESSION: Barman
FROM: Bridgend
HOW WOULD YOUR FRIENDS DESCRIBE YOU? ‘Loud and messy, and irritating probably.’
TOM
AGE: 21
PROFESSION: Butcher
FROM: Somerset
WHAT ARE YOU MOST LIKELY TO GET NOMINATED FOR? ‘I think I might potentially offend some people. My mouth moves faster than my brain.’
TRISH
AGE: 33
PROFESSION: Stay-at-home mum
FROM: Luton
WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH THE PRIZE MONEY IF YOU WON? ‘I think my first priority is to sort out my housing situation. The housing crisis is just ridiculous and my housing situation has been unstable. It brings me a lot of mum guilt because I’ve got a young child. It’s my biggest incentive and motivation to win.’
JORDAN
AGE: 25
PROFESSION: Lawyer
FROM: Scunthorpe
WHAT ARE YOU MOST LIKELY TO GET NOMINATED FOR? ‘Being cantankerous and acting as if I don’t want to be there even if I do in my heart. They might nominate me for being disengaged perhaps or not paying everyone an equal amount of attention. They may feel left out but I can’t help that.’
DYLAN
AGE: 39
PROFESSION: DJ
FROM: Coventry
TELL US AN INTERESTING FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: ‘I appeared on a TV show called The Last Leg about amputees – two years before I lost my leg!’
NOKY
AGE: 26
PROFESSION: Banker
FROM: Derby
WHAT MADE YOU APPLY TO BECOME A BIG BROTHER HOUSEMATE? ‘I love challenges. I’ve had so many amazing times in my life, like going to Miss Universe as Miss Great Britain. I like to do something different and I think this is the next challenge I want to conquer. I want to show people what pageant girls are really like and disprove a lot of stereotypes around them. I also show what it’s like being a woman who’s worked in male- dominated fields. I want to show that women are capable of doing anything they want.’
PAUL
AGE: 23
PROFESSION: Security officer
FROM: Liverpool
WHAT ARE YOU MOST LIKELY TO GET NOMINATED FOR? ‘Being the biggest wind up, eating all the food and being the loudest housemate.’
OLIVIA
AGE: 23
PROFESSION: Dancer
FROM: Glasgow
WHAT ARE YOU MOST LIKELY TO GET NOMINATED FOR? ‘I think when people are in that hangry state, that’s when I’ll wind people up and grind their gears. I think they’ll nominate me for being full on, and for my brutal honesty and oversharing of opinions.’
FARIDA
AGE: 50
PROFESSION: Make-up artist
FROM: Wolverhampton
TELL US AN INTERESTING FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: ‘People are always surprised when I say I got married at 43. Or also that I’m an ex-holiday rep in Gran Canaria and Menorca.’
HALLIE
AGE: 18
PROFESSION: Youth worker
FROM: London
WHAT ARE YOU MOST LIKELY TO GET NOMINATED FOR? ‘Being lazy and having an opinion. I’m quite opinionated, I like speaking my mind and not many people like that. I’m quite real.’
YINRUN
AGE: 25
PROFESSION: Customer support agent
FROM: Harrogate
WHAT PART OF THE EXPERIENCE ARE YOU MOST LOOKING FORWARD TO? ‘I’m most excited about being surrounded by so many people from different walks of life. I don’t think I will ever live in a house again with so many different kinds of people. I’m from China and I think it will help me be more immersed in British culture.’
CHANELLE
AGE: 29
PROFESSION: Dental therapist
FROM: Llanelli
WHAT ARE YOU MOST LIKELY TO BE NOMINATED FOR? ‘Probably just for being annoying. In Wales, we have this saying, “I’ll do it now in a minute.” So like, if I went to make food and I left a dish on the side, I have all good intentions of washing it but I’d be like, “I’ll do it now in a minute,” and it might be three hours later before I do it. So probably for silly stuff like that.’
ZAK
AGE: 28
PROFESSION: Model
FROM: Manchester
WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH THE PRIZE MONEY IF YOU WON? ‘Pay off my debts and help my family out. I’ve also been saving up to build a park in my village back at home in Thailand because where I grew up, there’s no parks or playgrounds.’
MATTY
AGE: 24
PROFESSION: Doctor
FROM: Isle Of Man
HOW WOULD YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY DESCRIBE YOU? ‘They would say I’m quite like a lucky person or someone who really wants to experience life to its fullest and do everything that it has to offer. Someone who is kind and fun and doesn’t take life too seriously.’
HENRY
AGE: 25
PROFESSION: Food writer
FROM: Cotswolds
HOW WOULD YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY DESCRIBE YOU? ‘I think they would say I’m particularly sociable and very chatty. I mean, I’ll be honest, my parents would definitely say I’m a bit of a snob but I take it as a compliment. I think it means you’ve got high standards and good taste. They’d say I was quite a peculiar child.’
KERRY
AGE: 40
PROFESSION: NHS manager
FROM: Essex
WHAT MADE YOU APPLY TO BE A BIG BROTHER HOUSEMATE? ‘I love the programme. It is, for me, the ultimate reality TV show ever. I’ve got multiple sclerosis and so the reason why I never applied before is because I always saw those whacking great big stairs to get into the house. It just felt a little bit unachievable because for the first three years of my illness I was in a wheelchair. When I saw it was coming back and searching for real people from all walks of life, I thought, this is my year.’
