Freddy Brazier has hinted he has split from his on-off girlfriend Holly as he admitted his ‘relationships are falling apart’.
The father-to-be, 21, told his followers he is ‘scared to be a dad’ because he is a ‘broken man’ and said ‘I’m not sure how much more I can take’.
Freddy, who is the second son of the late reality star Jade Goody and TV presenter Jeff Brazier, took to Instagram with a heartbreaking post as he gathered his thoughts while on a late-night stroll around London on Sunday night.
Admitting he’s been thinking about his mother – who passed away in 2009 following a battle with cervical cancer when he was just four years old – Freddy told his followers he’s ‘constantly questioning whether [he’s] good enough’.Â
Sharing a picture of the London skyline on his podcast’s social media page, he wrote: ‘Head is so loud! Had to take myself on a late-night walk to clear my head. I’ve been thinking about my mum loads recently!
‘I’m scared to be a dad as I’m a broken man. My relationships are all falling apart.
Freddy Brazier has hinted he has split from his on-off girlfriend Holly as he admitted his ‘relationships are falling apart’ (pictured together last month)
The father-to-be, 21, told his followers he is ‘scared to be a dad’ because he is a ‘broken man’ and said ‘I’m not sure how much more I can take’Â
‘I’m constantly questioning myself if I’m good enough. I’m trying to be healthy and stay away from green, but life is hard [right now] and I’m not sure how much more s**t I can take!’Â
The star also shared a more positive post, including a series of photos as he wrote: ‘Skincare, events, eating good and keeping fit, baby training and late night walks are all things that make me happy. What makes you happy?’
The model revealed the news in August that he would be welcoming his first child.
Since then, he has vowed to turn his life around and has patched up his relationship with his father, Jeff, 47.
The influencer sadly lost his mother, Jade, when he was just four years old after she died from cervical cancer on Mother’s Day in 2009.
Since her death, Jeff has looked after Freddy and his older brother Bobby, 22.
Jade’s mother Jackiey Budden, 68, helped raise Bobby and Freddy following Jade’s death, but she and Jeff have clashed multiple times over the years.
More recently, Freddy confessed to starving himself and replacing food with green, which is a street name for the drug cannabis.
Alongside a photo of his grandmother Jackiey, he wrote: ‘Prioritised my relationship with my mum’s mum not knowing she has been lying to me for years!’
Freddy included a video of himself walking along a street in a dressing gown, following by a short clip of an ambulance with the caption: ‘Had episode after episode. Til I got sectioned and spent my 18th in a psychiatric ward.’
Freddy took to Instagram with a heartbreaking post as he gathered his thoughts while on a late-night stroll around LondonÂ
The influencer sadly lost his mother, Jade, when he was just four years old. Since her death, Jeff has looked after Freddy and his older brother Bobby, 22
The star also shared a more positive post, as he wrote: ‘Skincare, events, eating good and keeping fit, baby training and late night walks are all things that make me happy’
Over the weekend, Freddy has appeared to reveal he tragically ‘tried to end it all’ over two years ago by ‘crashing his car’ in the middle of a ‘manic episode.’
He took to TikTok to bravely share a video explaining his heartbreaking journey, with a generated voiceover in the video sharing the extent of the model’s mental health struggles.
In the video, Freddy told his followers that he spent his 18th birthday ‘in a psychiatric ward,’ but realised after that ‘something needed to change.’
The video began with a generated voiceover that said: ‘2.5 years ago after crashing a car in a manic episode in an attempt to end it all.’
He captioned the post: ‘2.5 years ago now, I’m f*****g proud of myself and I can’t wait to tell my story.’Â
Showing how he realised he had to change his habits, he then wrote: ‘Something clicked in my head needed to change! Started getting out more.’
He added that he then decided to start ‘eating better,’ and focused on his close circle of friends and prioritising ‘self-love.’Â
The video then showed images of himself attending events, training in the gym and eating salads for lunch, along with the words: ‘Eating better. Time away from London. Bit of training. Small circle. My doggo. Skincare and self love.’
Earlier this year, Jeff considered taking action in an attempt to legally block contact between his son Freddy and his grandmother, ‘to keep him safe’.
However, the pair appear to have mended their relationship and Jeff publicly wished his son a Happy Birthday in September, stating he would always be there for him.
In a preview for his own Load Of Old Cobblers podcast, Freddy admitted: ‘I’ve been smoking since I was 12, l’ve been to rehab, I’ve been sectioned, l’ve had manic episodes, l’ve been sectioned.
‘There’s been a real journey and it’s been a tough one.’
