Lily Allen has heartbreaking admitted she can’t concentrate on anything apart from the overwhelming pain she is feeling amid her split from David Harbour.
The British singer, 39, bared her soul during her latest Miss Me? podcast episode, which she hosts with friend Miquita Oliver, as she confirmed their separation.
The mother of two detailed the months of agony she has been through while suffering from panic attacks and a lack of focus.
Lily explained how she had tried to attend the podcast’s Christmas lunch but was forced to leave after having an attack.
She told listeners: ‘I know I’ve been talking about it for months but I’ve been spiralling and spiralling. It’s got out of control, I’ve tried.
‘I came to the Miss Me? Christmas lunch and had a panic attack and had to go home and I went to see something at the theatre the other night with my friends Carla and Claire and I had to leave at half time.
Lily Allen has heartbreaking admitted she can’t concentrate on anything apart from the overwhelming pain she is feeling amid her split from David Harbour
The British singer, 39, bared her soul during her latest Miss Me? podcast episode, which she hosts with friend Miquita Oliver, as she confirmed their separation (pictured with David in 2020)
‘I can’t concentrate on anything except the pain I’m going through. It’s really hard.’
Lily confirmed her split from husband David in a new podcast as she detailed her fragile state of mind during a ‘tough period’.
The media is awash with reports that the couple have gone their separate ways after Lily caught her husband using the celebrity dating app, Raya.
And the star seemingly confirmed reports of their break-up during an episode released on Thursday, as she admitted she ‘wasn’t in a good place’.
Recalling a story which included David, Lily heartbreakingly stumbled over the word ‘husband’ as she detailed being on holiday with the actor, 49, in Kenya last year.
The London native went on to discuss how her two daughters, Ethel, 13, and Marnie, 11, who she shares with ex Sam Cooper, have been a pillar of support recently.
She said: ‘I can say, it’s really tough – they are always there and you have to be present and there for them.
‘And that’s okay, when things in life are going well and you’re coping it’s really nice to have the kids around they’re a joy.
Lily confirmed her split from husband David Harbour in a new podcast
The media is awash with reports that the couple have gone their separate ways after Lily caught her husband using the celebrity dating app, Raya (pictured 2022)
And the star seemingly confirmed reports of their break-up during a new episode which was released on Thursday as she admitted she ‘wasn’t in a good place’
‘One of the main sources of joy in one’s life. But when things are not going so well and life is tough, as it is for many people for all manner of reasons, having to hold things together is really hard.’
When asked if it was easier now her daughters are older, Lily said: Yeah, we are a support network for each other and encourage each other to talk about or feelings but I think the main thing is telling them we’re going to get through it and be fine.’
Lily then reassured listeners she will be back after her time off and told them to ignore any speculation that she may have returned to rehab following a past drug addiction.
She said: ‘I’m going away next week for a few weeks, listeners. But I do want to reassure people because there will be speculation because of the amount of time I’m going to be taking away that I’m going to drug rehab – I’ve not, I’ve not relapsed.
‘I have seen some horrible blind items on the internet that I was found in a crack den by my husband being surrounded by men. I don’t know who is spreading these vicious rumours but it’s not true.
‘It all comes back to the phones. They aren’t doing us any good. They certainly aren’t doing me any good at the moment. I really don’t like my phone.
‘I’m as guilty of that as anyone else, what I’m very excited about where I’m going over the next few weeks is that I’m not allowed my phone.’
It was recently revealed that Lily turned Wagatha Christie to find out if her husband David was looking for other women amid split rumours.
She unleashed an impressive set of skills after suspecting her husband was cheating, and was reportedly left in ‘agony’ when she discovered the actor had a secret profile on the celebrity dating app Raya, The Mail on Sunday revealed.
Deciding there was only one way to find out the truth, Lily rejoined the dating app where she first met David, and pretended to be ‘looking for women’.
She soon discovered that David had already set up a dating profile and was listed on the app as being active for at least a month.
Lily turned Wagatha Christie to find out if her husband David was looking for other women amid split rumours
The actress didn’t appear to be wearing her engagement ring and wedding band (pictured)
A source revealed Lily’s meticulous methods: ‘Lily was looking for women that were on Raya and cross-referencing them with women David follows on Instagram to try to figure out who he was seeing. She was doing her Wagatha thing.’
Former England football star Wayne Rooney’s wife Coleen was famously dubbed ‘Wagatha Christie’ after she turned detective online to out fellow WAG Rebekah Vardy as the apparent leaker of stories about her.
‘Lily only rejoined Raya to try to figure out whether he was seeing someone,’ the insider continued.
‘Lily has never even looked at anyone since she met David. She is devastated. He broke up with Lily a month ago. He was meant to be on holiday with her in Kenya over Christmas.’
David’s dating profile, exclusively revealed by the MoS, reads: ‘Visiting New York from Atlanta’ and ‘closet nerd that plays tough guys on your TV’.
He lists his profile song as the Houses Of The Holy by Led Zeppelin.
David describes himself as living in Atlanta, Georgia, 800 miles from the family home in Brooklyn, New York, where the couple moved in 2020 with Lily enrolling her children in local schools.
He bought a house in Atlanta last year so he could be closer to the Stranger Things set.
David and Lily on their wedding day in 2020. A source revealed Lily’s meticulous methods: ‘Lily was looking for women that were on Raya and cross-referencing them with women David follows on Instagram’
The show wrapped filming its fifth and final series just before Christmas. Lily’s circle of London friends say she has believed since the autumn that her husband is interested in other women.
By the time the couple broke up about a month ago, she had become convinced that he had a secret girlfriend.
The singer has not made any public statements on her relationship with David since it emerged they had parted ways in December, but a friend of the Lily confirmed they had officially ‘separated’.
He has previously spoken about his penchant for a whirlwind romance. ‘I’m easily swept away, but I’m trying not to be as much,’ the Stranger Things actor told Women’s Health in October 2017.
‘I’m better at the fantasy of relationships than I am at the daily real life, but I’m trying to steer myself into a realist,’ he added.
He continued, ‘What I find most exciting now is sharp, intelligent, insightful women. People who are deep thinking, who have sort of a weird way of looking at the universe are wildly attractive to me. So if I can find one of those gals who can stand me, then maybe I might have something.’
The actor has a history of dating fellow thespians, enjoying a three-year relationship with Broadway veteran Maria Thayer from 2008 to 2011, with the pair even getting engaged.
Shortly after their break-up, David went public with actress Julia Stiles after the two starred together in the 2012 film Between Us.
The actor has a history of dating fellow thespians, enjoying a three-year relationship with Broadway veteran Maria Thayer from 2008 to 2011
Shortly after he broke up with Maria Thayer, David went public with Jason Bourne star Julia Stiles after the two starred together in the 2012 film Between Us
In early 2018, David debuted his romance with actress and singer Alison Sudol. Just over a year later the pair had split, shortly before he met Lily on Raya
They were linked for four years, walking several red carpets together and moving in together in New York, before they eventually broke up.
In early 2018, David debuted his romance with actress and singer Alison Sudol. A besotted Alison paid tribute to her man on social media, gushing in a Valentine’s Day post: ‘I’m sitting here and I’m thinking to myself, wow, this human being that I am on this crazy journey with is pretty unbelievable.
‘What a generous, large-hearted, roaring wonder of a person I get to walk around and do stuff with. Like eat food and read books out loud and watch our dog sleep. And isn’t that great. What an ignited soul, what a fire-spirit.’
‘What a brilliant artist. What a caring, deep, intuitive individual, who has changed my life completely and utterly. What a lucky woman I am.’
Just over a year later though the pair had ended their relationship, shortly before David met Lily on Raya.
