Gwyneth Paltrow still battles ‘excruciating’ pain over the death of her father more than two decades ago.
The Iron Man star was left devastated when her dad Bruce Paltrow passed away in October 2002 aged 58 following a battle with cancer.
Paltrow has now revealed she has learned to process her grief differently over the years but she still feels a ‘dread’ and a ‘heaviness’ set in as she approaches the anniversary of the loss.
In her Goop newsletter, she wrote: ‘My father died six days after my 30th birthday on October 3, 2002.
‘We were on a road trip together in Italy that began in Tuscany and was meant to end in Portofino but we never got there; he was airlifted to intensive care in Rome from Lucca on October 2 and died early the next morning.
Gwyneth Paltrow still battles ‘excruciating’ pain over the death of her father more than two decades ago. Seen in April
The Iron Man star was left devastated when her dad Bruce Paltrow passed away in October 2002 aged 58 following a battle with cancer; seen in 1999
‘I had experienced loss and grief before that day, but something about the bereftness, wrapped in shock, was a new kind of anguish – astonishingly acute – and it would last for years …
‘The pain was so heavy, so inescapable, I wondered if it would ever relent. Eventually it did – or rather, it changed. It became more abstract.
‘As I had my own children and made more self-affirming choices in my life, the lost-child part of the grief softened, and the experience became integrated into my story as if it had been written into my DNA’.
Gwyneth went on to reveal she still feels anxious as her birthday and the anniversary of her dad’s death approaches every year, but she now tries to experience her grief fully rather than pushing it away.
She explained: ‘Even now with my birthday on the horizon, I feel the heaviness start to creep in. It feels like dread – a subtle compression of the heart.
‘I used to try to push it away, to distract myself, to think of other things.
‘Now I let it in. I move through the events, if I need to, I replay them all and allow myself to feel it all. It is not comfortable – it can be excruciating.
Paltrow at the Shakespeare in Love premiere in NYC in 1998
In her Goop newsletter, she wrote: ‘My father died six days after my 30th birthday on October 3, 2002. ‘We were on a road trip together in Italy that began in Tuscany and was meant to end in Portofino but we never got there; he was airlifted to intensive care in Rome from Lucca on October 2 and died early the next morning’; seen in 2024
‘But I have learned… that what you resist, persists. So I open my heart to the memories and to the pain. ‘I let them wash through me and, somehow, I become fortified by them.’
This comes after her daughter Apple Martin landed her first fashion campaign.
The 21-year-old aspiring model – who is the daughter of Chris Martin – is teaming up with London-based fashion house self-portrait for a new collaboration, with the venture unveiled on the brand’s Instagram account.
In a casual selfie video, Apple said: ‘It is me, Miss Apple Blythe Alison Martin, coming to you from the floor in a gorg self-portrait little baby tee and these cute ass earrings.
‘And I’m so excited to be the new Miss self-portrait and for the campaign to come out.’
In a separate post, the brand – which was founded by Han Chong in 2013 – wrote: ‘Welcome to the family @applemartin.’
Previous celebrity collaborators include Emily Ratajkowski, Gigi Hadid, Naomi Campbell, Irina Shayk, Bella Hadid, Kate Moss, Jisoo and Phoebe Dynevor.
This comes after her daughter Apple Martin landed her first fashion campaign. The 21-year-old aspiring model – who is the daughter of Chris Martin – is teaming up with London-based fashion house self-portrait for a new collaboration, with the venture unveiled on the brand’s Instagram account
Apple recently admitted she has been ‘very anxious about making mistakes’ because of the scrutiny she’s faced throughout her life.
She told Interview magazine: ‘It’s interesting because I grew up with that uneven balance of getting out of the airport with my mom and being bombarded with cameras, and then just being a normal kid.
‘I remember I read ‘Discipline and Punish’ [by Michel Foucault], which is a great book, but talking about the surveillance state—I feel like I’ve grown up with that, which is really scary and makes me very anxious about making mistakes.
‘So I was really discouraged from doing anything in the public eye. Also, I was like, ‘I don’t think we need another celebrity child in the world.’
‘I just try to do what feels right and block out anything regarding me in the news to the best of my ability. And I’m getting a lot better at being like, ‘F*** it’. I’m not going to be scared. I just want to do what seems fun and figure my life out.’
